I never learned how to swim. In years of sailing, I never let the water touch me. The ocean was an abstract dread, an obliterating void as untenable as outer space. In January 2018 we went on tour. After years of scraping by, we found our footing with our fourth record Yours Conditionally. It was a commercial success that set us up to to play the biggest rooms of our career. But three shows in, I developed a raging case of influenza. Each night I dragged myself onstage and croaked out the set in a delirium.